I had a dream

I was on my way home from a day out with my dear friends, some of us were drunk silly but i was the captain in my ride plus the driver ofcourse, it had been an eventful day.

We had gone bowling, watched a movie, ate good thai food and boat skiing....it was a day to remember. On the same day, i had a fight with my boyfriend about him been impassionate and forgetful plus always putting himself first and as usual his answer was "sorry" like that was going to change anything. I was in rage and said some nasty things, at that point i had wished not to see him ever again.

We went home in separate cars at different times.

We were close to chevron when i saw a ghastly accident...one car was under a huge craine, another on the side of the road, burning, and his car upside down in a fence just by the road. My heart literally stopped, i couldnt breath for at least a minute, my heart was racing and i had turned green. No one could have survived this kind of accident i said to myself, my sweetheart was gone. My own wierdo, a man i love as much as i do myself. Oh my! my last words had come to pass, i woudn't be seeing him again for real. Life without him would be different with less color. I wish i could just turn back the hands of time and take it all back...i really didnt mean anything i said, i was just angry and irritated at that time.

I was in tears wrapped around my friend as she tried so hard to console me when someone tapped my shoulder....it was my sunshine. Dear God, i just stood there frozen, i opened my mouth but nothing came out...i was reaching out to hug him when i woke up and found him there, lying by my side fast asleep. I was dreaming....

It felt so real because i woke up crying and with a headache.

I went on my knees and prayed fervently...... indeed i was grateful that my baby was safe and sound and i made a promise that day, no matter how angry or upset i get...i'll rather speak as nicely as possible or not speak at all. Anyday could be our last....i love him so much to allow anything go wrong.